Waiting for Ruby...

Thanksgiving is over now. There is nothing else left to do except wait for Ruby. And it's not easy. Or I'm not patient, or both.

Aaron is home this weekend on Thanksgiving Break (so now would be a great time for you to come, Ruby, hint hint.), and he's been so good to keep the kids busy with fun things that I am too tired to do. And he's been great at helping me keep my mind busy. At night after all the kids are in bed, he comes up with little projects or activities for us to do. We've been reading The Giver together, we've wrapped Christmas presents, we've designed our dream house, and so on. I love that husband of mine.

I threatened this year to just cut a tree out of paper and let the kids paint it and then hang it on the wall. Doing the whole decorate for Christmas thing, kind of sounds exhausting to me right now. Like way more than I can physically take on. Aaron would have none of it though, and he planned an outing for our family to go pick out a real tree. Then he brought the kids home and helped them decorate it, while I sat in a comfy chair and took pictures.

The weather has been beautiful for it being almost December. We've taken lots of walks to try and induce labor. So far, no luck. But the kids have been loving being able to bike ride, and play outside.

We also went to the park and played Frisbee, well, Aaron and the kids did. I watched and walked laps. :)

I had contractions for about an hour today while everyone was at church. I thought we might be heading to the hospital when everyone got home from church...but then they stopped.

So, now it's Sunday evening, and still no baby. I'm kind of at the end of my ropes mentally. I really don't want to go back to all our activities tomorrow and still be pregnant. I have a doctor's appointment in the afternoon, and I think if I make it to the appointment I will schedule to be induced. I don't really want to be induced...but I REALLY don't want to be pregnant anymore either. I just hate the unknown...where am I going to be when I go into labor? Will I get the kids where they need to be? Who will be watching them? Will Aaron get home in time? Will we be able to get to the hospital before things get crazy? AHHHHHH!! I just want to be done, and know how it's all going to play out.

I just want my baby to be here. And I want my body back.